I've been thinking a lot...

I've been thinking a lot lately.  I've come to the conclusion that it's time to make some solid moves towards bettering myself.  I think I've been an inactive participant in my own life for far too long.  I have to meet this depression head on and fight for my life.  Checking out is not an option, and I can't continue on the way I have.  What other choice is there than to fight? 

This whole quest to decrease/eliminate the Effexor, I think can be translated into a desire for me to reclaim my life.  Whether or not this includes the drug has really lost a lot of it's original significance.  I do want to lessen the side effects, but this might be able to be acheived by simply switching to something else.  Then again, maybe not.  My main concern is to start feeling good about my life. 

Self-esteem.  It's hit home in a big way lately, that 'herein lies the problem'.  I really have to do some major work on my feelings of self-worth, and getting rid of some of my self-destructive ways.  Where to start?  I mentioned in the last post that I needed to get moving.  That's definintely going to remain at the top of the list.  I've been doing some walking, and generally tried to keep more active around the house lately - getting some spring cleaning done etc - , and I think it's agreeing with me.  It's hard to get going, but once I do it feels good. 

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